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Always waiting and waiting so long for his blog,

m started to mould~

But i'd used to it...so what's the point dick...

i thought today m goin to study hard,

cuz i have to go back to hostel today actually,

but by virtue of ...

urgh,

...i hate to tell the reason,

it makes me sad once again.

I intend to conceal it well inside my heart,

but he requested i must be honest to him...

so...guess what?

Goin to tell the truth la, how i feel la! what~

I want to go back quickly because i really want to study!

U asked me to study hard,

so that we wont separate easily,

m worried bout that too,

i know i wasn't an intelligent or a genius,

i work so much harder compare to the others

so that's why i came to this level,

m different...

but because of that,

i own much than the others...

i know how it feels,

how when i goes hardwork feels,

the feelings are extremely good!

And now...i have to wait one more day.

that's not what i planned!!

and i lost a day to study...

i know, i dont have dedications.

i've lost it,

last year steal whole, too greedy.

Now left zero for one.

& What m madding is,

maybe i'll go alone,

alone to mutiara,

alone taking bus to kepong jusco...

all alone...

but...

m not scare!

No...

i can go by myself,

what's the matter?

But u just dont...dont even...

you know what that kinda hurts a lot.

I dont want to go because of it...

But i dont want to b a FFKw.

I tried so hard...

so hard to calm down myself,

so hard to cheer my mood up

and use the gud mood to chat with you

cuz i know u'll like it much!

Only that way can grab YOUR heart...

Phht...

And now...

Err...

Nothing.

I watched Wild Wild West.

My mood's now happy.

Hmm...forgotten the old sad thing.

...

You know what i hate?

I hate when m questioning you

and waiting your answers,

you dont bother me.

Hey at least lah tell me what r u goin to do, man.

I hate dummy a lot la.

Well...

m not scolding you...

Just tried to vent out my feelings

and be honest to you.

Now m tottaly fine.

What i need is your caring,

bout how is your ulcer?

are you okay?

still feeling well?

try to miss me and you'll be okay.

Like that....when m not feeling well.

Uhhum...

Well...

About your family.

OMG.

Tell you something.

Since i was a kid,

i dont scare for uncles aunties,

i dont scare or panic to talk with them,

to chat to share feelings...

M a super duper triple ...

anti-THEM-less to THEM.(WT* m talking about...==)

If you found i dont talk to them,

that means i hate them

or i found they're super intelligent that detecting me,

...i'll only chat well to those really

sharing and talk nice to you...

Except this time...

i feel....really really really...

NERVOUS.

One of the main reason is,

you non-stop praising how ...

grisly, how powerful...

ahh duno what words should be
the most suitable to describe it...

how strong your mom is...

OMG m really going to faint.

Phht....

Have...

you...

finish...

your...

blog...

?...

Urghhh....

Tired....

Energyless....

...

...

...

...

Actually, m not drop off yet...
though m so sick, suffered lots and lots more,
but i still want to finish my blog 1st,
as in fact i have a lot to say.
Cause I'll receive a morning call,
a very very sweet morning call,
from him, tomorrow morning.
So i can sacrifice a lil' bit of my precious sleep time.
I just wanna finish what i want to vent out today.

Dear,
i could sensed that u've changed, a lot.
Maybe, two of us too.
We've come this far,
as we learnt and facing many predicament, difficulties...
I've grown up!! How did u do?

But maybe u change in a different aspect.
Did u thought of, our relationship, goes a li' bit, slightly, ...
distorted? or twisted?
After the thing I've told ya, about it.

I don't know how to answer you the question u gave me today.
But if u really dont want to know
you wont ask it out at last right?
So i did assume you want to know it really...
but i dont know if i could...if i able to answer you...
if i could...make it...or not.

Sorry i've got no time to write it in chinese,
so just try to understand what i want to carry out...

I just want you to understand.
I just try my best to tell you how deep i fell in love.

I told my mom the truth.
But what i get the answer is.
She...
Urgh.
What the earth is going on?!!
Her response made me feel sick!
Just...
she dont get the love when she was still a teenager and she jealous me right!?

Phht...
well...
m quite tired.

I have to type-off here.Nightz.

This is what i desire.

Live happily under the sunshine, and you're taking the every picture of me.

gudbye friends , the blog will be temporarily closed for a nap , but the love story never rests....

Finally...

Finally i can use Eng to write my entries ~ pheww ~
lot's of incidents happened these few days,
especially ...

both of us went out together,
we date, we chat, we have movies,
we have fun, we laugh, we K...
and we have our night together
(noted : not as what u think, just a very normal ...)
If u wish to know more, see my previous n previous n previous n....entry.

yea, we thought we're going to separated by my parents.
And that night we're totally fussed up...
i done so mny things that crazy me on
...like so awful and disgusting...
no la just what i think of, mayb others dun think so.

And i saw the weird guy i knew last year.
I dont know what's he going to do with us.
I received a call from him last last week,
he asked me for a sudden , my bf...
and where's his tuition centre located.
OMG what the * was that?!!

i thought i might be get crazy
and keep worrying around and frustrating and...
you know if anything happen to him
i swear m gonna call police , inform my parents and his parents
and all my friends even my UNDERWORLD friends.
Oh, i forgotten, his brother knew some of the underworld's buddies.

Gosh, ....i began to hate this world already!

maybe one day, i should create my own world
as what Final Fantasy does ><
see, i started to get influenced by ViVi already.

See, already already already, all because of you MAN!

Um...okay, m now really tired...waiting for his update.

i'll continue tomorrow.Gud Nite everybody, and especially to my dear, muackxs!!

坦白

我们的第39天，爱情证书。

刚刚接到你的电话，

我的心头大石才从十万八丈高放下地下室。

相差一个小时！

比早上我没接你的电话相差好远！

喂，你故意的啊？！

但是听到你说，

你拿到21的巴士车票，

就许愿说要我平安没事，

我感动得没话说。
你怎么这样对我，

这么，好。

说到我们的缘分还有心电感应，

刚刚，（怎么还是刚刚）

我又玩了心理测验，

‘看你和身边哪个月份的人有爱情的缘分’，

答案出炉的时候，我以为我眼花了！！

4月！！是4月！！

你是！你是4月的！你也是4月！！

天哪。开什么玩笑。

月老，你不要给我希望，

然后到最后放我飞机。

（关放飞机什么事，白痴！）

我喜欢我们单独在一起的时光。

没有旁人的干扰，我们什么都可以坦诚相对。

对不起，每当我看着你的脸庞，

我就不禁想起我们快分开的场景。

我就忍不住想要哭泣，

如果真的让你觉得很无奈，我也没办法，

谁叫你喜欢上一个超级无敌感性（不是性感），

一点点悲伤都会让她掉下一公升眼泪的大白痴。

哦，又是刚刚，

听了‘我不难过-孙燕姿’

和‘会有那么一天-JJ’ ，

哭了。没法子啦，太悲了！

其实我有好多好多心里话想说，

可是我开不了口。

[总是开不了口让他知道~]

我知道应该坦白，

但我不希望你听了会和我一样想太多，

然后就会像上次在KTM车站一样，

说出那些让我痛心的话，

那些你会离开我的话。

我以前，（先不要吃醋）

还没和你开始之前，

也不都经常那样流泪吗？

为什么你会认为是

和你在一起后才开始的呢？

那只是我爱哭的个性而已。

答应我，

要陪我一起勇敢的撑到最后，

陪我一起克服那些

什么都不明白的

黑痴分子的闲言闲语，

（黑痴比较低级，

所以低级黑痴没得和我

这个高级的

白痴比，哈哈）

他们往后才会明白

我们的感受，

可是那时候

来不及了，

哈-哈-哈！

没关系，

我知道

那是我的报应，

也许会很久，

但为了你，

我还是会

撑到最后，

不会轻易放弃。

你也看到了吧，

那个紫色玫瑰戒指的脱落。

对不起，

我早就预料了它会很脆弱，

看，很不值得吧，

可是你却用了

RMxx来换回我的心吖，

你自己说，怎么看？

我好难过。

仔细想想，你给我的，真的太多了。

你第一个给我的，是正版的紫色耳机。

第二个，应该是什么呢？

是戒指吧，若没有遗漏。

第三个，是那个感动到不能自己的，

杀死人不偿命的，情书。

第四个，（好像又漏了什么）那个...我们的孩子。

噢对了，那件白色的长袖衣，又是给我的吗？

看，还有请不完的餐。

最重要的是，你给了我你的心，

确定你是真的给了我吗？

还有什么呢，我确定我漏了些什么。

对了，还有你的...那个凌晨我们...

哎呀，你知道就好。

（哈哈，看下读者们观后感猜的是什么）

可是我似乎给不了你什么。

在大厦的地下室，你说的字字句句我都铭记心中。

你要的是坦白，你说过，我做到。

也许对一个说过谎话的女生的确有些难度，

但是我真的不会对你说谎，

因为你说过。你-说-过。

我能给你的，应该仅仅是坦白。

我不喜欢你说的那一句，

那一个‘情史很多’的那一句。

有讽刺的味道。很浓。

那一句的出现会让我觉得，

你的心给得非常心不甘情不愿。

就算是一个情史多得像山的人，也会...

我想，你一定没有把我告诉你的那些故事给听进去吧，

所以你还是不懂我的感受，

听到‘情史很多’这四个字时的感受。

我不会是让你印象深刻的初恋情人吧，

我很失败，我没有真正的谈过恋爱。

让你的初恋和这么一个人过，很不值得吧，

所以停止对我的宠爱，求求你，我不值得。

为什么还要对我那么好，你会让我觉得我很差劲！

让我觉得很愧疚，很...

我说不完了。

还是一句，我爱你。

我真的真的很爱你。

我怀念我们相拥的时刻，

对我来说，那感觉美得好像全世界都为我们而停止。

我们的爱情证书里，有了坦白。

我们

明明说好

今天才是一起约定好

一起出去好好约会一番的日子

但是我们提早了

说实在的

我真希望是今天

也许

就不会发生那么多不愉快的事

但过了就算了

我们也算拿了经验

^^

我不告诉你

是因为不希望你会那么麻烦

你也会累

那是我谅解你的作风

不要怪我啦

我毕竟没有谅解错误啊

今天真的很想念你

明天可以见到你

很开心

其实明天的事

没有人可以知道

这个家喻户晓

不必我说

你们也明白

嗯

我不知道要怎么扩展

总而言之

就是

要珍惜当下

不要抱怨所有的不满

因为算起来

的却比别人幸福得多

老是想自己不幸福的人

就一定不幸福

时时刻刻满足自己拥有的

以后活得都很快乐

那是吸引的法则说的

我没忘记过哦

亲爱的

我好想你

[答应我

去了外国

要活得好好的

要爱惜自己

要健健康康的

这样

我也才能安心好好地过我的生活

外国的夜空

月亮有比较圆吗？]

坏脾气

坏脾气的人类

有谁可以看得见他们的脆弱和伤痛？